December 2011
32 posts
POEM
Instant coffee with slightly sour cream in it, and a phone call to the beyond which doesn’t seem to be coming any nearer. “Ah daddy, I wanna stay drunk many days” on the poetry of a new friend my life held precariously in the seeing hands of others, their and my impossibilities. Is this love, now that the first love has finally died, where there were no impossibilities?
Frank O’Hara, 1956
sounds dreamy
When I went to Paris I finally felt like I was in a culture I could have mutual understanding with, because everything was so crazed and emotional all the time, like people making out in the supermarket and at parties someone would inevitably end up in tears and the others would gather around and hug the tearful person and murmur to them in French and hand them cigarettes. I felt very safe and...
digital menarche
Lately I’ve been thinking about my writing as confessional, gossipy diary entries and feeling kinda trivial. I’m trying to maintain a sense of feminist history here, though, because isn’t that always what people say about young women’s writing? And Gurlesque and Marie Calloway and Anais Nin and girls with their livejournals (to paraphrase Kate Zambreno) and vomit poetics...
“But it is also true that ghosts are never innocent: the unhallowed dead of the...”
– Avery Gordon, Ghostly Matters: Haunting and the Sociological Imagination (via multitudes)
5 am writing session aha moment
My writing voice is a cross between Holden Caulfield and Gossip Girl. For example “OMG everyone’s a phony”. And then just add some critical theory and that’s me. #ninthgradeneverends
“…a creative listener is not someone who simply allows me to say what I already...”
– james carse (via azspot)
on why I should have been allowed to interpretive...
“One version of psychoanalysis will say that the definition of mental health would be the capacity to tell a coherent narrative. From another psychoanalytic point of view, that would be precisely the problem. I think both things are true. People who have suffered ruptured, violated lives need and want some narrative coherence, but narrative coherence quickly can be a problem when it...
“…it is a question of becoming. people always think of a majoritarian future...”
– deleuze, a conversation: what is it? what is it for? (via karaj)
honesty and Fuck You.
I discovered I couldn’t go along, with the government or governments, with radicals and certainly not with conservatives or centrists, with radical poetics and certainly not with other poetics, with other women’s feminisms, with any fucking thing at all; belonging to any of it was not only an infringement on my liberty but a veil over clear thinking.
- Alice Notley
“5. To know that one does not write for the other, to know that these things I am...”
– Roland Bathes, A Lover’s Discourse: Fragments. (via batarde)
Performative wholesomeness: I WANNA BE A MENSTRUAL... →
what are the poetics of menstrual blogging? is it all about being an abject girl who talks about vomit all the time? hysteria and an inability to compose yourself or your writing? I like the pairing of the order to compose yourself and the essay as composition. if the menstrual blogger can’t compose herself, is her composition erratic as well? is menstrual blogging the digital form of...
no friends, skipped a grade
“Everywhere I go my intelligence is denied.”
- Alice Notley
I want smart young women and alienated teenage girls everywhere to start announcing their brilliance to the world. I want to be like Gertrude Stein telling everyone she’s a genius, or Penelope Cruz’s character in Vicki Cristina Barcelona: “Not talent. Genius. Gen-i-us”.
Adolescent arrogance ftw
When...
“To live without dead time means to embody a great refusal, to find pleasure in...”
– Micah White (via sundaymorningchange)
After Man: “To the university I’ll steal, and... →
after-man:
“To the university I’ll steal, and there I’ll steal,” to borrow from Pistol at the end of Henry V, as he would surely borrow from us. This is the only possible relationship to the American university today. This may be true of universities everywhere. It may have to be true of the university in…
“The desire to be taken seriously is precisely what compels people to follow the...”
– J. Halberstam, The Queer Art of Failure (via ibik23)
Militant Maudlinist: Avery Gordon on history and... →
militantmaudlinist:
“…You’ve heard me on this point before, but I think it’s crucial to see beyond the constraints of these constructions to a place where they’re there and powerful, but where they are only one condition of our being and not entirely in control of what we are and what our capabilities are. This…
Militant Maudlinist: Ariana Reines →
militantmaudlinist:
From her essay, “Sucking”:
It is good to think about what’s refused, rejected, disgusting, humiliating, revolting, and why. It’s good to think about how disease is transmitted, and what constitutes what we call “Nature.” French slang is all about shit, way more than American slang. In THE COW,…
masochistic feminisms
“Something I’ve been thinking about lately is that I don’t know how to reconcile my desire to destroy the anarchist man with my desire to fuck him. This leads me to think that maybe those urges shouldn’t be inherently separate… but I should probably stop before I try to make an argument for civil heart war.”
http://zinelibrary.info/files/dpi-print.pdf
The boy-girl thing gets...
undone by desire
Part of the reason I think that queer theory and love theory are related to each other as political idioms, is that queer theory presumes the affective incoherence of the subject with respect to the objects that anchor it or to which they’re attached. One thing that is very powerful for me to try and think about is how we could have a political pedagogy that deals with incoherence. Where the...
Untitled: rambly →
basquecuisine:
kind of rambly but
the main “message”/idea i was trying to convey in adrien brody was a criticism of the idea about women having power over men with their sexuality/beauty. not just men who believe this, but showing how women who internalize this myth are…
I’m so interested in the Adrien Brody piece right now. I’ve been thinking about my dual...
“A PTSD clinical diagnosis defines trauma as an overwhelming event that produces...”
– Ann Cvetkovich “An Archive of Feelings: Trauma, Sexuality, and Lesbian Public Cultures” (via clairebearstare)
Performative wholesomeness: I WANNA BE A MENSTRUAL... →
queeragripoetics:
[[[[caution periods and the language of clinical depression]]]]
my period was late and i only knew because i have iphone app with big pink flower.
Did Your Period Just Start? Tap Here.
Your Period Is Late. Projected Start Date Was December 17
feel vaguely irritated with phone app making…
karaj: notes on/from discomfort →
karaj:
“for the phobic, not ‘i will not engage’ but ‘i can not engage’—what does it mean to accept the possibility you don’t know how things will turn out. it evacuates the subject as agent. it a way of disabling yourself. it is experienced by the phobic as ‘it’s out of my hands’” “it’s pathological when you’re waiting but you don’t know what you’re waiting for. insatiable desire,...
Claudia Kishi, Vampire Slayer
IV. Claudia Kishi (The Baby-Sitters Club) Sometimes I really miss Kristy Thomas. Yeah, she was bossy, and hated fashion, and wasn’t boy crazy like my best friend, Stacey, but she was organized and driven. If she was around, this whole Slayer thing would be easier. Probably not safer, it would never be that, but it might not take so long and I’d have more time for my art. Instead of painting (and...
All the coolest knuckle tats for liberal arts...
negationparty:
lavosxii:
LACA NIAN
RHET COMP
DELU ZIAN
POST STRC
true story: getting a lacanian stick & poke with my friend in a couple days
(it’s the discourse of the hysteric, obvs)
also:
NOMO POMO
HYST ERIA
towards a queer poetics (maybe)
queeragripoetics:
or, why i have a hard time watching porn
disclaimer #1: if you are someone in, for instance, my nuclear family, i ask that you not read this if material about my sexuality will make you uncomfortable. same goes for people at my work or admissions committee at U********* of *******]
disclaimer #2: been thinking a lot about the difference between a politics and a poetics,...
: Moved by On Kawara’s work today. It has occurred... →
elainecastillo:
Moved by On Kawara’s work today. It has occurred to me also to write postcards to those I know, especially since I now live so far from everyone I know. Postcards which say only, just as his do:
I AM STILL ALIVE
or
I HAVEN’T COMMITTED SUICIDE DON’T WORRY
or
I HAVEN’T COMMITTED…
“The thing I like about love as a concept for the possibility of the social, is...”
– Lauren Berlant, “No One is Sovereign in Love: A Conversation btw Lauren Berlant and Michael Hardt” (via whateverjeanne)
Third Solitude Series: Jewish Anarchists and the... →
thirdsolitude:
(Advertisement for a Yom Kippur Ball in New York, courtesy of Eddy Portnoy at Tablet Magazine. Translation below.)
It’s easy to lose sight of the fact that Montreal’s Jewish community was not a single, unified pillar, even in its earliest years. As with the French and the English,…