February 2012
35 posts
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name that affect! round one
when you get really desperate for money and you email a bunch of craigslist sugar daddies about how you’re a cute young girl struggling to pay her bills, and one of them sends you his photo, and then the next week you get a job at a cafe and on your very first shift he comes in with his wife, and you hide in the back even though you’re not sure if he would recognize you with your...
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awp, anyone? also, tumblrverse, anyone know of a place I could crash for cheap/free in chicago next week? I promise to do all the dishes and tell you stories about polar bears.
“I would like sound art if it was silent.”
– me being a hater with art friends
(because I hate noise and bring earplugs everywhere. see also: fights I’ve had with my musician ex-boyfriends. “I just don’t get why people like, enjoy shows and stuff.”)
“Desire: yes: the sudden knowledge, like coming out of ‘flu’, that the body is...”
– Adrienne Rich, Re-forming the Crystal
“you were not the source”
“this desire was mine”
for the lover who made you not-bored, the lover who made you think you were boring
“it could be used a hundred ways” (and one of those ways could be feminist leaving,...
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“People do go back, but they don’t survive, because two realities are...”
– Jeanette Winterson, Oranges Are Not the Only Fruit
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“I considered my choices.
I could stay and be unhappy and humiliated.
I...”
– Jeanette Winterson, Sexing the Cherry
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“How is it that one day life is orderly and you are content, a little cynical...”
– Jeanette Winterson, The Passion
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“She must find a boat and sail in it. No guarantee of shore. Only a conviction...”
– Jeanette Winterson, Oranges Are Not the Only Fruit
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and speaking of hospitals, don’t get me started on the number of lectures I got from doctors about not being on the pill, without them asking me anything about my sexual history or current practices, even though at the time I hadn’t had sex in a way that could initiate a pregnancy in about eight months. and not correcting them, not being loudly queer, because they were rushing me...
I just found this piece I wrote a few months ago, when I was in the middle of the first real health scare of my life. I’m not sick in the way I thought I was, but in that time I was forced to drastically, brutally reimagine my future, it was the worst, it was the worst but it was still better in some ways than lying in bed moping for no nameable reason, it gave focus to my moping, it left me...
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Looker Looker: “I’ve always considered the whole... →
lookerlooker:
“I’ve always considered the whole Writing Practice idea as yet another example of some poets’ insufferable egotism, a total guy thing, like they think they’re such geniuses their shopping lists should be bronzed. Would these guys consider a woman blogging about her heartbreak as part of a serious…
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“Praxis »
Here are some feminist compositional strategies and...”
– Becca Klaver for Delirious Hem, 2009
Polyvocality seems esp. relevant wrt tumblr poetics, and stream-of-consciousness overlaps with the diaristic, at least for me. There’s this thing I do, of writing and writing and collecting quotes and theory in a gros melange of a word document, and it...
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“These tensions and paradoxes are mirrored in Marlatt’s mother/daughter...”
– killing the retro-mom-who-wants-to-coax-you-into-boredom in your head
feminist matrilineal anxieties
my mother and I are having a pitched battle about futurity - she’s on the side of paranoid temporalities when it comes to how I organize my life, I’m all anticipatory and bright-eyed
...
future-matt asked: Regarding your learning query, Read 'Let's Spit on Hegel' by Lonzi. Also, 'Italian Feminist Thought: A Reader' by Sandra Kemp is brill.
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Mapping the positive disintegration of my relationship with my mother, item one
Mom: (bla bla bla, ew homosexuality, you seem slutty on facebook, etc)
Me: (all caps bcuz yelling into phone) I’M SORRY I HAVE SEX WITH WOMEN SOMETIMES, MOM!
Also, if referring to your mom as a psycho bitch behind her back is grossly reliant on pathologies that ultimately oppress both of you in similar ways,...
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“now that I’ve broken my six-year veg, I just want to be totally surrounded by edible dead animals. I wanna take meat baths, I wanna writhe grotesquely in bacon fat. #not sorry”
my most recent fb status is generating a lot of veg analysis, some backlash, some interesting and important responses. but nobody gets the brilliance of the imagery.
see also: meat joy by carolee...
everything.real.neon: feminism, activism, pretty... →
Bolding mine, and reblogging because I’m so there.
everythingrealneon:
It’s like back 10 months ago or so, I was real into activism as a fairly rational response to knowing how fucked the world was and seeing it as about the only way to plug in and try to fix things. Then, I dropped out of that and got all anarchy. 6 months ago, I was real into anarchy and shit. All like, how can I raise...
new hashtag: radical truisms, shit we need to say to each other all the fucking time
number one: “That doesn’t mean you have to sleep with him”
jenny holzer, if you’re reading this feel free to project it onto the louvre or white house or wherever.
karaj: embarrassed, not "embarrassed" →
winnet:
karaj:
kj: [redacted beloved college professor] is gonna also be at a conference that i will be at at nyu. wc: you should wear your green pajama pants to jog her memory. kj: omg FUCK OFF. no one knows about the green pajama pants! how do you remember those?! wc: green pajama…
me too! just got to new york tonight. tumblr irl party?
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“because there’s so much essentialism around talking about periods (yr a woman...”
– Performative wholesomeness: menstrual blogger redux (via rgr-pop)
tactical recap
feminist gossip
feminist boredom
radical narcissism
feminist oversharing
feminist makeupping
menstrual poetics
see also: upping the coven, bullying, internet gangs
I keep returning to male approval as something that infuriates me leaves me feeling helpless and crazy and abject and desperate because my feminism is always tainted and complicit. I feel traitorous all the time. I wonder if everyone else does too. I wonder how I’m supposed to reconcile my conflicting desires. This is a quote from my fifteen-year-old diary: “I want to write but not to...
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speaking of fragmentary anecdotes, last night was almost the perfect intersection of radical and twee, and I bet you’d have liked it.
I went to a queer slowdance, complete with dance cards, streamers, balloons, a photobooth, a proliferation of sequins and combat boots, and places to write your missed connections on the wall
it was in the dingy basement of a feminist/anarchist punk venue...
Performative wholesomeness: what do you wish you'd... →
on the first day of my intro class, years ago, the prof had all the students introduce themselves and talk a bit about what they wanted to get out of gender studies. I said something about wanting to find a language I could use as a weapon against all of the sexism I felt totally immersed in, wanting a way to sort through my life and articulate why the shit that felt like shit wasn’t new,...
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“one can die from being unable to write in time the book one has in one’s body....”
– helene cixous, first days of the year. has anyone written so well about tumblr feminism without writing about tumblr feminism? (via karaj)
“This is the nature of our sex: She takes a word, straps it on, penetrates me...”
– Jeanette Winterson, Art and Lies
“I guess I want to also resist the notion that love is always, somehow, an object choice, and there are therefore certain “objects” that glow or darken as a result of the attention they receive, or don’t receive. For me, love is also a kind of force field that may not even be directed to any particular objects or persons at all but actually radiates out toward the entire...
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“you seem like a powerhouse of sad things.”
– guy on okcupid
January 2012
48 posts
mom's worried about suspicious bloggers
Me: “I feel much safer being out at night in a big city, instead of back home where the downtown was almost empty at night. Here if anything funny happened there’d probably be a bunch of hipsters drinking across the street.”
My mom: “Okay, but would they rescue you? Or would they just blog about it?”
karaj: the politics of playing dumb →
hysteriarama:
my mom used to write for the school newspaper when she was doing her undergrad, and a couple years ago we found a box filled with maybe a year’s worth of issues. basically every article was student activist-y, earnest, kinda dry “save wherever” sort of stuff.
but my mom’s…
playing femme, which is related, can work a similar way. i mean, acting a little ditzy is totally a...
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what if I just tagged everything I write #cry for help?
for example: some Lauren Berlant quote #cry for help, something about castration #cry for help, thinking about the Canadian national imaginary #cry for help, queer theory #cry for help, tumblr’s so great #cry for help.
and so on. hashtags as depressive performance art.
winnet: “The psychoanalyst Susie Orbach tells me... →
winnet:
“The psychoanalyst Susie Orbach tells me that there’s an “epidemic of celibacy” in the UK and the United States. So I wonder: is everyone beyond sex (not just the queer scholars who might have, you know, been there and done that, aged out, made art, bought property, endured AIDS, forged a couple,…
karaj: on boredom with men's privileged suffering →
karaj:
“this is not to deny the misogyny of flaubert’s text or the way in which flaubert fetishized his own sense of loss (through an imaginary identification with femininity) while simultaneously sharing his own period’s hostility toward women. nevertheless, if melancholy and boredom are both defined…
oh my god, this is so important.
Transgender People--Banned From Boarding Airplanes... →
droppingthefbomb:
The shit hit the fan in the trans blogosphere last night, when it came to light that there is a disturbing new section in the Identity Screening Regulations used in airports throughout Canada. Simply put, Transgender People are Completely Banned From Boarding Airplanes in Canada.
The offending section of the regulations reads:
5.2 (1) An air carrier shall not transport a...
SHOULDERS: okay maybe here’s what i can think of:... →
mikkipedia:
hysteriarama:
shoulders:
okay maybe here’s what i can think of:
feminine boredom is to the detriment of everything that is not the one true love, i.e., being-desired and a perfect fairytale are the sole antidotes to the condition of being a bored woman. emphasizing and prioritizing the boredom is against its panacea,…
I’m into this. I’m also not sure if the conversations...
mikkipedia: negationparty: This is Ulrike Meinhof... →
negationparty:
This is Ulrike Meinhof speaking to the inhabitants of Earth. You must make your death public. As the rope was tightening around my neck, an Alien made love with me … How does anybody ever figure out their lives? There is a painting in the Frick of St. Francios of Assisi…
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my mom used to write for the school newspaper when she was doing her undergrad, and a couple years ago we found a box filled with maybe a year’s worth of issues. basically every article was student activist-y, earnest, kinda dry “save wherever” sort of stuff.
but my mom’s column was a year’s worth of articles about how the price of diet coke was going up ten cents,...
SHOULDERS: okay maybe here’s what i can think of:... →
shoulders:
okay maybe here’s what i can think of:
feminine boredom is to the detriment of everything that is not the one true love, i.e., being-desired and a perfect fairytale are the sole antidotes to the condition of being a bored woman. emphasizing and prioritizing the boredom is against its panacea,…
I’m into this. I’m also not sure if the conversations around...
“It strikes me that an outré costume is one very effective way of twisting the...”
– Becca Klaver
“Teenage girls puke in private, they puke because they have been presented with...”
– Kate Durbin
It May Be No One Should Be Opened: cyberslut rules... →
bagofshit:
pussy-strut:
sl33pcr33p:
- never compromise yr feelings to make people comfortable - cry in public - nothing sober is real anyway - violence is the new “being the bigger person” - mellow is not an interesting state of being - you take up for every girl…
dress like a witch
if you bleed through let it show and tell everyone it’s menstrual chic
refuse to...
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SELF-IDENTIFY AS A HATER
I’m always being chastised for finding things boring. I can’t count the number of partners who have criticized me for that, everyone likes to think that what they love is so fascinating, nobody wants to see your boredom but these boys are so masturbatory and they drone on about their fucking music and they don’t say anything worth listening to and I can not believe that I am...